Michael Loderstedt

Apology to Trees

We lived under live oaks
on the backside of the island,
big as a house, limbs akimbo,
canopy dense with catbriar

making natural dark rooms
from the hot hot sun. We hung
hunted deer from back-leg
branches, splitting the carcasses

with dull knives, spilling blood
& entrails onto the roots, never
thinking what the tree wanted,
one damn indignation

& hatchets slung into tree bark
as if they were meant to hold there.
Too impatient to carve names,

names too unimportant
to say, we answered to nicknames:
Turtle, Froggy, Junior & Lobsterhead.
Slept under those same trees

next to sputtering fires built too
close to trunks, too drunk to swat
mosquitos. Nature was a pock-marked
face in wood-smoked clothes.

Island time was marked by trees
knocked over, Hazel (in ’58), Donna (’61)
or Ginger (’71): the rainwater ponds
from root balls were also nature—

freshwater vibrating, wriggling
baby snakes & tree frog eggs.
Metal tub of boiling seawater
wedged over a fire, the oysters still

muddy, hissing & popping open,
hot brine spilling from mouths,
cutting lines down our dirty necks,
Empty shells piled around

trunks, and more shells entwined
beneath roots & broken
Algonquin pottery. And on
it goes, so many leaves

shedding raindrops as
roots remain dry. I will
stand under broad shade
& say that I’m sorry, late

of course, but this too
is my nature, I confess.

Michael Loderstedt‘s debut book of poetry Why We Fished (published by Redhawk) received the UK Poetry Book Award’s Silver Award in 2023. Other recent poems have recently been published in the NC Literary Review (receiving the James Applewhite Prize in 2021), Muleskinner Review, the Naugatuck River Review, Bangalore Review, Kakalak, Pinesong, and in recent anthologies Light Enters the Grove, Neighborhood Voices, and Poem for Cleveland. Michael received an Ohio Arts Council Fellowship in Literature in 2020.

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